Wednesday, April 11, 2012
IS HAPPINESS PHYSICAL OR A STATE OF MIND?
I have been thinking a lot about happiness lately. What is it. Is it something you feel emotionally or is is a chemical release in our brains for something physical or for an object.
Tomorrow is my birthday and perhaps that is why I am a little emotional today and doing some reflecting. I consider myself a happy person. I try to live my life positively. I do tend to keep the emotional things to myself and just deal with them on my own. Perhaps that is my Scandinavian background or perhaps it is the fact that I am the eldest.
I have always felt that if you don't try you will never know. I have always tried to do things to please myself without worrying about what others thought if it did not effect them.
I have always been the positive one, the one everybody figures never needs a shoulder to cry on because I have been the one with the shoulder.
This has been my philosophy of life. Make a cup of tea, sleep on it, be positve and it will look better tomorrow.
I am proud of myself that I have always taken up the cause, mostly for animals because they need a voice. I feel that if you don't make changes no one will do it for you. I am a take action kind of person. No one can make you happy if you are not happy yourself. Things, although they can give you happy moments don't make you happy.
I appreciate my life everyday. It is just that sometimes I tend to carry too much inside and it is days like this that break me. I feel everyone around me's pain and it rips me apart when I cannot do anything about healing that pain, including my own.
Usually words like these help me and I have been trying really hard today to cheer up. I have a great life, I have a family who loves me. Is it possible to be in a room full of people and still feel alone? I am not depressed by any means that is not the problem. I just need to find my bliss again.
If you are a reader of my blog you know that I have suffered the loss of both of my beloved dogs in the past 4 months. We decided to wait a year before bringing another one or two into our lives but I have found it so incredibly lonely here that I have been looking at adoptable dogs on Kijiji. Shelter dogs are on there as well as dogs who people either can no longer care for or just plain don't want anymore. I know that this is a big contibution to my sadness. I read these stories and I know that I cannot have them all and it just makes me cry. I hold every face of those dogs in my mind. My husband tells me to stop looking but I can't help it.
You also may remember that my son and daughter-in-laws cat Kaysar went missing. He has still not returned although Natasha did see him. This is another thing that makes me so sad. Not only is he out there somewhere and needs to come home but I hate seeing my daughter-in-law and son so unhappy.
Sometimes you just have to get it out to someone to feel better. I am sorry if this seems like a "down" post because I am usually very upbeat, but it has made me feel a little better. Maybe the sun will shine on my birthday, maybe Kaysar will come home, and maybe some of those lovely dogs I have been looking at will find forever homes.
Images from PINTEREST.